good week

Well after last weeks excitement I'm glad to report this was a very quiet week. We got along at work and I had no issues with anyone else all week long. This has given me a new appreciation for seeing things from another persons viewpoint. She was kind and sociable with me all week long because of my actions to rectify the misunderstanding. If only I could take this with me forever now. I've done it once successfully so now I wold like to repeat my problem solving skills to all my hard situations that I manage to get myself into. The calmer I stayed the easier It was to come up with the solution. So now when I find myself struggling with an application I have new tools at my disposal to fall back on and think things through more effectively. We've been talking about perspectives a lot lately and it is a recurring theme with good reason. It has really opened my eyes to a new way of problem solving.
We do not live in a perfect world and I will probably lose my cool again or say something to offend but I can react better without losing my cool so quickly. realizing our mistakes and then admitting our mistakes goes a long way to mending fences with others. The hardest is eating all that humble pie. Putting others ahead is not always easy but well worth the reward in the long run. Take care everyone.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

update

This is the results from last nights encounter at work. I pulled her off to the side to apologize and she accepted my apology. I told her I would do better to share more of the information with her and try not to do that to her again. What I learned from all this is how this forum really helped me keep it in perspective. I usually react with a lot of emotion and it always goes bad for me. This time I kept my cool and did not push the issue when she was clearly mad at me. We had 2 days to calm down and I saw my mistake and I feel like a better person for having resolved it in this manner.
This then translates very well to my kung fu. Patience is very important when it come to the overall view of our training. Had I not remained calm this could have blown up like it usually does for me. Not this time though. I stayed focused put the issues out there. Saw my participation in the argument and determined the steps needed to resolve the matter.
I usually spend days with an upset stomach when I have an altercation like this and beat myself up pretty good on my part in these situations however this time I am fine. Thank you one and all for letting me vent my feelings in this manner. I have truly grown this weekend for the better and I owe it all to blogging.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

Empathy

I had an interesting night at work. I was told to do some stacking while my partner would load the trucks and do the unloads. Now from my perspective this made sense to me however I wasn't able to communicate this to my partner effectively. She was very upset with me because of my lack of communication. I was unable to resolve this because she was no longer talking to me. So I went over in my mind the conversations we had and I am starting to see how I made a mistake. She was not present for my talk with the supervisor so was not made aware of the goals for the evening. I did not communicate with her effectively enough to clear up this misunderstanding. She spent the rest of the night upset with me and did not talk with me further. What I should have done was make myself clearer on our instructions from the supervisor so she would have know the same goals as I knew them to be.
Going forward from here I have to have another conversation with her and clear the air so she knows why I made the decisions I did that night. I knew she was mad so did not antagonize her until she was able to cool down. It did not happen last night so I'll have to wait for Tuesday to give it another try. By blogging about this It has helped me see the part I played in our misunderstanding. I usually beat myself up over these disagreements but I now see the argument in a clearer light. I did not communicate all the information I had with her and because of this she was offended by what looked to her as a lack of empathy i did not have for her. The silence was our saving grace so as not to further offend each other with harsh words that are not needed.Now I need to go to her and explain further the miscommunication we had so I can work with her again.
Thank you for letting me share this with you all. I hope this makes me better at communicating with people because I did not mean to offend her yet I did. So my bad I will try to do better in the future and watch my words more carefully.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

self truth

Blogging is great if we mean what we say and follow through with our plans. I find i ramble on about things,  only to speak. This is not effective speaking though. To make this truly beneficial it means actually saying what we mean not what we think others want to hear. This is a lot harder than it sounds. I am a great bullshitter and i can talk the talk but is it really helping me at all. I asked this of myself as I start blogging again because it is an important  to be truthful to myself. To gain value from this I need to do this for me, This sound like a broken record to us all but do we really believe it.This is how I feel   the blogging is for me. so I am going about this with a new found respect for this forum. My blogs will be more about me and what I need  so I can continue growing. Otherwise I'll probably just stop again because the value to me will be gone. I have to hold myself accountable for my role in the team. I want to join again next year so it means more blogging.I will be vigilant in trying to stay focused on me so I do continue to retain the value this does make for me.so here's to stating over and carrying on so to speak as a more truthful blogger to myself.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

being in the moment

Hello again, I am trying to live in the moment more often. It sounds easy but really it isn't. We tend to dwell on the past a lot and the past is usually 20/20 so we look at all the negatives and it cycles downward from there. By living in the moment it is bringing me more aware of what I have and what I am doing right now at this very moment. Life is either great  or it sucks. It's our goal to be great more often than not. I can appreciate the little things more often by just looking around me and saying yeah right now at this moment things are great because... The answers are different and ever changing but isn't that what life is about anyway. My life is looking better to me when I truly appreciate what I have, where I am, what I am doing. So live for the moment and your life will truly change for the better.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

blackout

I'll start with an update on my needles. She had to poke me twice and I was fine for both so Yay! fear conquered once and for all. Last night at work we experienced a power outage and we were forced to stay in the lunch room for 1hour and 30 min. I got restless and started doing my forms and I could not believe the amount of energy I had. My knee was fine and I went through them all a couple more times to make sure It  wasn't a fluke but sure enough I did great. My thoughts on this development is that I give my work 100% o myself with no slacking. When we were faced with no work for a period of time I found myself at a loss of things to do. It felt great and I didn't know I was being so selective with my energies that I gave everything to my work and little to my kung fu. This is one of those Ah ha moments I had with myself. I really need to look at my energies and start applying them in a better manner. Work is fine but my kung fu means just as much to me and I have to take the steps to change my attitude towards my practice. I can practice more to regain the mobility I enjoyed at my peak in training. tonight's blackout showed me I am just fine to do all my reps and still put in a nights work. So time to get off my back side and get back into training. I just got Sifu Becketts video of her sword form so I will endeavor to learn and start up with my reps again. After all I can still finish stronger than I've been all year. Thanks team for always being there. Sifu Jeannette Langner

needles

I first started fearing needles when I got pregnant. they want all these blood tests and I didn't like it at all. So I put it off until I had to be in the hospital and they decided to take it all at once while I was there. I hated needles with a passion that became a phobia. so 2 years ago i decided to get a tattoo to help with my fear. That was incredibly painful and now getting blood work done no longer terrifies me. I am going in this morning and the pain is nothing compared to having a tattoo so I've kept that at the front of my mind and I can go to my appointments as needed again and not be scared of them anymore. I am very happy to have faced this fear and overcome it. I don't think I would have done this without the team support so thank you all for being there and helping me with my fear. I am eager for my next challenge because this one seemed to big to kick but i am no longer terrified.


Sifu Jeannette Langner

extraordinary

Saturday was an extraordinary day for me. The meeting was fantastic. I want to help those who feel like giving up for whatever reason please don't. The changes we are undertaking this year are life changing. I feel better about myself knowing I am not alone with feelings of self doubt and Guilt. Guilt is the biggest ego deflatter. You fall fast down the hill because of guilt. The courage to look up and see helping hands instead of judgement. What powerful words those were to me Sifu Frietag. A ladder to help me climb up not push me down. For those who missed the meeting I would like to share her message. Our group is about teamwork and we are all there reaching down to help you up on the ladder of life. Embrace the wonderful opportunity you have evreryday and come experience how important you are to the group. We may stumble we may fall but with so many helping hands waiting to lift you up your chances are 26 people stronger by being apart of this I ho chuan. Come to practice as often as possible. Bug those who were there and find out what you missed. Stay in touch with us we are all here struggling with the same Guilt in one form or another. Participate you will love every minute of it. Thank you all for being so extraordinary.
Sifu Jeannette Langer

update

Well it's been a week since Ive completed the cleanse and water tates fantastic.
My portion sizw has gotten smaller and I still crave healthy foods. So yes this green smoothie cleanse definitly works. I no longer crave red meat fish and chicken are more flavorful to me now. I may be at 183 now but I feel I am making healthier choices for foods now. I am confident I will see a difference in my weight with my new appreciation for vegies. This is well worth the effort I highly recommend the cleanse to anyone. I will report on my findings in a month So take care.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

results

As you know I've just completed my 10 day green smoothie  diet. I started at 185 and went down to 179. Not a huge weight loss but that wasn't the goal. The goal was about rechaging my taste buds to like healthier foods. Did it ever work. On my own at night eating at 3 in the morning I don't always make a healthy choice. Tonight I went out and bought myself a nice lunch. Before the diet I would never have picked these ingredients up let alone prepare and eat them. I bought some broccolini and mushrooms and an onin to stir fry then some chicken wings to go along side. Now this is a quick and much healthier way to eat than chips or a chocolate bar or maybe even fast food. My cravings have stopped. I no longer want chips. those are my biggest weakness. I love chips and right now they turn my stomach. So for those of you looking to improve your life take the 10 day challenge it will do great things for You I promise.  The book is called "10 day green smoothie diet" by JJ Smith.
We had hamburgers for supper tonight and I could not finish the burger and it was just ok. The chicken is still tasty but red meat is not my go to hunger food as much I want fish and chicken. I normally don't care for fish but it's tasting better to me now. I am so blown away by the change in my taste buds try it you won't regret it.

sifu Jeannette Langner

green smoothie

Hello everyone I have a new challenge for you to try. My husband and son did it and now I am. It is a 10 day green smoothie cleanse. My husband was trying to get a healthier diet and found this book on how to cleanse the body . This book also has the side benefit of losing weight. However that is not the goal of the diet. It's goal is to retrain your taste buds into a healthier lifestyle.  I love food and i especially love meat. I never thought I could do this but they insisted it would be good for me. I am on day 5 of this diet and it is tough. you can eat all the fruit and veggies you want but they take away all the yummy food. No breads no milk no meat. It's been really tough. The book is helpful with lits of ways to push through to the end. Randy lost 16 pounds and Tom lost 15. The smoothies are really tasty it's living without the meat that has been the challenge.
My taste buds have exploded and food is coming alive for me. Cherry tomatoes are the best tasting thing since bread. I don't miss the beef or the pork as much as I really miss the chicken. The book is called " 10-day Green Smoothie Cleanse" by JJ Smith. I like it because I'm not starving I'm just changing my lifestyle.
 This cleanse helps reboot your taste buds and appreciate food in a whole new light. I love coffee and I don't miss it at all. I drank up to 2 cups a day.  I'm cut off right now. The thing that hurts the most is the joint pain as I am detoxifying my body. Everyones symtoms are different. Tom thought I would have horrible headaches from the caffeen withdrawl but I didn't have that issue. For me it's been the joint aches. Water is tasting really good again. The thought of fast food does nothing for me anymore. I want fresh food again. and I'm willing to prepare it because I can taste everything again. I started at 185 pounds and I will tell you the results on day 10. Sifu Jeannette Langner

report

well I had a great time at Pandamonium again this year. I got in a ton of reps. We had a blast. We started the night off with Da mu hsing and then forms just kept on going. i was able to learn my Tai chi  form from Mr Solanger. He was very patient with me. I learned a lot from him and we had fun too. All the people who came for the night shift did very well.We even had a Birthday girl in attendance. Ms.Playter celebrated her B-day with us. Randy and crew were doing push ups and sit ups all night with the goal of 50 per hour. They were going strong still by 8 am. They were really inspirering to watch. i did Broad sword 70 times, Mulon koon 24 times, 18 temple motions 15, Da Mu Hsing 10 Hunh 10 Lung 10 Kempo 5 Lao Gar 5 Stick 13 Spear 7 Dragon 10 Fan 11 awakening the dragon 9 and 5 Tai Chi.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

Thank you

This is a big thankyou going out to Ms Gibbons. You keep me engaged even though my numbers are abysmal and I really appreciate you asking for my numbers evey week I want to keep trying because of you. We both have issues a mile long so we don't dwell on them we just cope. She is doing better than me I think sometimes. So I wanted eveyone to know what a special person she is to me and my engagement level. I am very fortunate to have her keeping tabs on me so I try harder not to fail. Thank you so much Ms Gibbons your continued support means the world to me. So here is a blog for your enjoyment this morning.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

carry on

having an arm out of commision is really frustrating. work is more tirsome and my arm starts to ache. I am staying aith my pace on reading my books i've got 7 done so far. I am liking these modifed pushups because at least it's giving me some progress. I know that i will recover and slowly I can make it back into shape it's just going to take a lot of patience. This group is really helping me with my patience by being there to support me I feel like I can and will come back to full strength. so I am carrying on with my numbers 80 again today push ups and sit ups. Sifu Jeannette Langner

hanging in

Well it's good to be back. I managed to pull a muscle in my right arm and it's out of commision for 8 weeks. So ill be left handed for a while. trying to stay focused and on target best way I can. Won;t stop just have to modify it so I can keep going. Broad sword left handed should be interesting. Anew challenge while the right arm heals. Those ice packs are my new best friend. I am trying to stay engaged by coming to all the meetings this year. Can't wait for pandamonium it's going to be a lot of fun. doing modified push ups for now so here is todays numbers 80 mod push ups and 80 reg sit ups.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

new year

This is a new year for everyone and I like the meaning behind it.
I get to start over and do things better and learn from my mistakes. I've made many and changing the destructive pattern is difficult. A pattern to change can be as simply as doing push  ups and sit ups everyday.Or in my case as hard as doing push ups and situps every day. It seems insignificant yet carries a huge impact for me. the repetitive excercise means better cardio for me and stronger arms. I know how hard it is to develope muscles in the arms and this has always proved the most effective. So why is this so hard to do. I have noticed that the support of this team is paramount. I want to do better when I am with the team. I try harder when I am with the team. The team has given me a reason to get better. So I blog I go to the tri liesure and work out then I record my numbers. Sounds like a good plan now for the execution.I know I will see the team on friday and I want to show improvement so I will do the work outs required. being accountable to everyone is a huge help in my motivation. You are all truly inspirering teamates. I am back on track and hope to stay there this entire year. With the team behind me I feel good about this endeavor.
Sifu Jeannette Langner