sparring

Had a great class last night. Most of you may not know this about me but I've hated sparring since I've started. It would always make me feel anxious and I would get an upset stomach and It was usually tolerated by me in silence because it is a big part of learning kung fu. I had a class where we all started hitting each other in the face and that was how I was able to break my fear of it but the anxiety always remained. I had my usual reluctance to spar but I did it anyway because this fear I've lived with for so long needs to be put to rest. I am proud to say I sparred with everyone there and not once did I feel anxious or upset in anyway. This was a long road I've had to travel to get to this point where sparring no longer evokes a dread feeling inside of me. I had so much fun last night. I finally see why the others love sparring so much. The sense of safety and security I felt was amazing. I sparred last night and I had fun. To me this is a huge step forward in my training towards mastery because I can now think of sparring in a new light I can remember this night and recall how much fun it was and go forward with a new outlook of optimism. Thank you to all the black belts present for making this such a memorable night for me. I will cherish it always. Sifu Jeannette Langner