Sparring 2

I've been thinking about my sparring class. It has really brought me to a new level of engagement. We had a sparring class and although this sounds normal I didn't get a whole lot out of them. Anxiety gave me nausea and a stomach ache and a feeling of inadequacy. So when receiving comments my brain would file it away under negative and not constructive comments due to the anxiety I would always feel when sparring. It's hard to put it into words but I want to give it a shot because I know I am not alone in my  old dislike for sparring. I put the qualifier old because I now have this gem of an evening to remember of how much fun I had and how good it felt for the first time ever. so if the anxiety comes back I can reflect on this amazing night and appreciate the value of all the help I have been receiving over the years. I started Kung fu in 1998. So it's been a long time in coming to overcome this apprehension of something so vital to our kung fu. I feel I've taken my next step towards mastery with this momentous occasion. To me this is a really significant turning point in my development where incremental progression has been realized in a positive way for me. My approach to kung fu has grown substantially because of this one night. I can't thank you all enough for helping me get here because this has truly been a group effort of patience and understanding on everyones part. I am truly thankful for all the feedback.I can honestly say I am hearing it with a new set of ears and it is exciting to understand what you all have been telling me for years. Sifu Jeannette Langner