Well I've been away for a while. My pain is getting worse not better and it's left me in a place of loathing. I'm sad because I can't train like I want and I'm angry with myself because I can't train the way I want. It hurts to train the way I want and the pain won't ever stop from going away. so why blog when the pain hurts so bad.I've committed to this team and it hurts to admit the pain I'm in. You aren't mind readers and unless I tell you the pain you have no idea what I'm going through. I've been in pain for months now and the doctors are not co operating by not telling me anything helpful.
this is painful to write because of all the silent suffering and we all promised to blog again so here I am. I want things to get better but they aren't and it's so hard to try to come on the mats it hurts to do repetitions yet here we all are doing an insane amount of repetitions. I don't know why I'm still here it hurts so bad at the worst possible moments and I'm letting the team down continually.Please help. Sifu nJeannette Langner
Sifu, I am so sorry to hear that you are in so much pain. Do not think you are letting us down. Everyone has their own journey to travel and it sounds like yours is a very difficult one right now. Please keep blogging and know that we all care and are sending support your way. Don't give up! I believe in you and I know you can overcome this challenge too.
ReplyDeleteDido what Sharida said.
ReplyDeleteCome to the kwoon and let's do some light sparring and techniques together and get you in a better groove. The support is here for you😊 Wishing you all the best!
We miss having you at class. I have some ideas that might be of help. Hope to see you soon.
ReplyDeleteWe miss having you at class. I have some ideas that might be of help. Hope to see you soon.
ReplyDeleteYou are not letting any of us down. You are showing us what the I Ho Chuan is about. Even though you are in such pain you are still pushing through. You are still blogging and are still engaged. Stay strong Sifu, I hope thwy can find something to help you.
ReplyDeleteYou are not letting any of us down. You are showing us what the I Ho Chuan is about. Even though you are in such pain you are still pushing through. You are still blogging and are still engaged. Stay strong Sifu, I hope thwy can find something to help you.
ReplyDelete