self truth

Blogging is great if we mean what we say and follow through with our plans. I find i ramble on about things,  only to speak. This is not effective speaking though. To make this truly beneficial it means actually saying what we mean not what we think others want to hear. This is a lot harder than it sounds. I am a great bullshitter and i can talk the talk but is it really helping me at all. I asked this of myself as I start blogging again because it is an important  to be truthful to myself. To gain value from this I need to do this for me, This sound like a broken record to us all but do we really believe it.This is how I feel   the blogging is for me. so I am going about this with a new found respect for this forum. My blogs will be more about me and what I need  so I can continue growing. Otherwise I'll probably just stop again because the value to me will be gone. I have to hold myself accountable for my role in the team. I want to join again next year so it means more blogging.I will be vigilant in trying to stay focused on me so I do continue to retain the value this does make for me.so here's to stating over and carrying on so to speak as a more truthful blogger to myself.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

being in the moment

Hello again, I am trying to live in the moment more often. It sounds easy but really it isn't. We tend to dwell on the past a lot and the past is usually 20/20 so we look at all the negatives and it cycles downward from there. By living in the moment it is bringing me more aware of what I have and what I am doing right now at this very moment. Life is either great  or it sucks. It's our goal to be great more often than not. I can appreciate the little things more often by just looking around me and saying yeah right now at this moment things are great because... The answers are different and ever changing but isn't that what life is about anyway. My life is looking better to me when I truly appreciate what I have, where I am, what I am doing. So live for the moment and your life will truly change for the better.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

blackout

I'll start with an update on my needles. She had to poke me twice and I was fine for both so Yay! fear conquered once and for all. Last night at work we experienced a power outage and we were forced to stay in the lunch room for 1hour and 30 min. I got restless and started doing my forms and I could not believe the amount of energy I had. My knee was fine and I went through them all a couple more times to make sure It  wasn't a fluke but sure enough I did great. My thoughts on this development is that I give my work 100% o myself with no slacking. When we were faced with no work for a period of time I found myself at a loss of things to do. It felt great and I didn't know I was being so selective with my energies that I gave everything to my work and little to my kung fu. This is one of those Ah ha moments I had with myself. I really need to look at my energies and start applying them in a better manner. Work is fine but my kung fu means just as much to me and I have to take the steps to change my attitude towards my practice. I can practice more to regain the mobility I enjoyed at my peak in training. tonight's blackout showed me I am just fine to do all my reps and still put in a nights work. So time to get off my back side and get back into training. I just got Sifu Becketts video of her sword form so I will endeavor to learn and start up with my reps again. After all I can still finish stronger than I've been all year. Thanks team for always being there. Sifu Jeannette Langner

needles

I first started fearing needles when I got pregnant. they want all these blood tests and I didn't like it at all. So I put it off until I had to be in the hospital and they decided to take it all at once while I was there. I hated needles with a passion that became a phobia. so 2 years ago i decided to get a tattoo to help with my fear. That was incredibly painful and now getting blood work done no longer terrifies me. I am going in this morning and the pain is nothing compared to having a tattoo so I've kept that at the front of my mind and I can go to my appointments as needed again and not be scared of them anymore. I am very happy to have faced this fear and overcome it. I don't think I would have done this without the team support so thank you all for being there and helping me with my fear. I am eager for my next challenge because this one seemed to big to kick but i am no longer terrified.


Sifu Jeannette Langner