Keep on Doing

April was  a lazy month. I'm not at all happy with myself. Procrastination does not make muscles. I can list a whole ton of excuses that don't mean much. So I start again.
Step one back to blogging. That really helped.
Step 2 Do the push ups and sit ups.
Step 3 Practice forms. Gain confidence with fan
Step 5 Blog about progress of start again.
I like this new logo of doing not trying. It's harder to put off when I say I will instead of I might.Knowing that everyone has been struggling with these same issues helps a little But it's time to unify our resolve. We will Do our requirements without fail. We will continue to move forward with our head held high because we are now Doing the work no longer trying.
Had meat loaf for supper then rice and pork tenderloin with rice for lunch brought bag of veggies had an orange and a banana for snack.
Did  the floors and cleaned the kitchen and vacuumed the living room. took out garbage.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

progress

Had a good night. I was able to get some cleaning done. This was a good thing because it was all things that needed to be done. With Easter coming it's easy to forget our routine with all this extra time off. However I am proud to say I made all my reps last night of both forms.I even got more push ups and sit ups done. My studies are even doing good. So I feel good that I am moving forward again.
Had spagetti for supper and hot dogs for lunch then a granola bar for snack.
Washed all floors then did dishes then did 2 loads of laundry and put it all away, then vacuumed living room. took out all garbage.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

closed mouth

I was recently held responsible for 2 mishaps that happened at work.Now normally I would go and convey my displeasure with the unfair situation however this time I chose to keep my mouth shut.
The first instance is I failed to put  a block between pallets, and when the driver had to brake hard the pallet fell over and caused a spill. The second instance I couldn't finish loading a truck so I put the paperwork back in the slot for the next crew to finish. The supervisor couldn't find the paperwork and the truck was late by 30 minutes.He said I hid the paperwork so it would be late.
In the first case I should have put up the block however I'll only accept 40% of the blame because I wasn't driving.In the second instance I could have told him on my way out about the truck then he would have known about it. However all I feel I'm negligent in the second case is my failure to tell him about it because I put the paperwork in the correct location.
The reason I'm sharing all of this is because normally I do go and vent my displeasure with the bosses.
This doesn't work out for me and I usually make it a lot worse.This time I spoke only with my supervisor and she helped me go through all the scenarios and helped me see how things went haywire and I just happened to be the unlucky person caught in the situation. So for once I feel better because I was able to let all the hot feelings die down and looking at it objectively.  I can improve in these 2 areas. I feel I am finally keeping my mouth shut at the appropriate times and found a more constructive way to deal with the situations.
What this has to do with Kung fu is this. I am 100% responsible for my actions or lack of action. By keeping a cool head and not blowing my stack I was able to take the criticism and use it to improve myself.
I did dishes, took out the garbage, swept the floors and made the bed
Had steak and tortellini for supper with a salad. had wonton soup for lunch and had a banana and an orange for snack and a granola bar.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

note to self

This is  a note to self time. I will get back to my reps in forms and push ups and sit ups. Have fallen off the wagon as of lately and I will not quit. so buck up and go do those reps. I enjoy them so should be fun. keeping it fun goes a long way. I will endeavor to log my progress daily again and show a good week on friday. no excuses just got lazy.
Had hamburger helper and veggies for supper. then had the same for lunch and a granola bar. then had a banana and an orange for snack.
Did blankets in laundry, cleaned kitchen, made bed,put away all laundry
Sifu Jeannette Langner

full fan form

I'm so excited. Sifu T Playter performed the form in its entirety for me last night and Sifu Wiebe was kind enough to record then send it to me. I watched it avidly again and again.It is the coolest looking form. I have a ton of work ahead of me. I hope to purchase a bamboo fan to learn the catch from behind. My metal one hurts to miss. All in all a very good night. I stayed for San Sou so I got more learning in.
Did dishes and took out garbage rest of time was kung fu and work.
Had 2 hot dogs for quick snack before kung fu then had last half of hot dog when I came home and brought bag of fruit and strawberries, and orange then had ginger beef with rice and noodles.
Sifu Jeannette Langner

focus

Staying focused and on course is much harder than I anticipated. It seems I can't stay motivated beyond the moment. I get up to start my chore and get sidetracked by just about anything. hunger TV, laziness, all contributing factors to my lack of progress. This is why blogging has helped me. I write about my failures then it gives me the kick in the pants I need to keep trying. I know I have really failed when I stop trying. So for those who do read this keep blogging and keep in touch. I do need this.
Had hamburger helper for supper and lunch with some fruit and an orange, 2 buns.with margarine.
Did dishes took out garbage.
Sifu Jeannette Langner